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What am I worth?

My wife recently suggested to me that perhaps the reason that I am not fabulously wealthy yet is because I don’t think I deserve to be.

She tells me that my subconscious mind might prevent me fom making my fortune by holding on to ancient hidden beliefs buried deep inside my childhood. Messages that were planted by my parents that make me feel uncomfortable about money, that create doubt about whether I should use every opportunity to take money from another. She says that wealthy people are rich because they feel that they deserve to be rich.

I think there is something in it.

Personally I do tend to err on the side of “less is more” when I’m taking money from others. Whether it’s splitting a bill at a restaurant, or invoicing a client for a project, I don’t take more money than I think is fair. I certainly don’t take as much as I can get away with, which is clearly how other business operators that I know behave.

And yes this behavior is very likely due to echos of my parents. They would describe our average suburban lifestyle as luxurious and extravagant. A privileged life enjoyed by less than 10% of the worlds population.

And it was true.

So if I ask myself why I am still “stuck” in this ordinary life, on an ordinary income, I can believe it might be because my subconscious thinks that we have already arrived. We are inside the worlds top 10% and that’s pretty good. My other “problem” is likely to be the fact that I am generally pretty happy. If I had a lot more money, I honestly can’t think of what I would buy to make myself happier. If anything it would probably start to spoil some of my fun.

I am a strong believer in the power of the subconscious mind. I think that if you truly desire something, and truly believe that you can attain it, then it’s more than likely that you will. But I also think that trying to fool the subconscious into desiring something that it is not programmed for is a recipe for disaster.

If it’s happiness that you are after, then you should be asking your subconscious mind what would make it happy, not trying to tell it what would make you happy. And I’ll guarantee that if you find the answer, it won’t be money.

Money is Energy

If money is energy, then my bank account is a battery.

Working charges the battery, and buying things requires energy which drains the battery.

I think this sounds like a reasonable way to view money. It’s a storage vessel for the work that we do, which in turn allows us to live within the restrictions of the society that we have build around ourselves.

Thinking this way allows me to stop hating money. It’s not money that forces me to work until midnight to meet a deadline. It’s not money that stresses me out when I receive a crazy bill from AGL for gas that was consumed three months before I moved into my house.

Money is just the vessel that carries the energy required to consume, participate in, or possess whatever it is that we need to keep our lives running the way we want our lives to run.

Part of me is thinking, as I write this, that this concept (which is certainly not mine, but which I have started to subscribe to) is just another argument designed to distract us from the fact that our lives revolve entirely around money.

Another part of me thinks that even if this is true, it doesn’t really matter, as long as it helps me to focus on the important things. It is unlikely that I will ever see a world that is not completely governed by the flow of money, but I can definitely create a reality for myself that is not governed by the flow of money.

By trivialising money as a simple way to transfer energy, (E.g. 1 hours work = $100 = one very nice dinner for me and my wife), then we can start to think directly about work in and reward out. (E.g. 1 hours work = one very nice dinner for me and my wife).

At the end of the day, money (specifically “Dollars”) is nothing more than a unit of measurement, no more important to our every day lives that Grams, Metres or Degrees.